I recently picked up the book, The Latent Power of the Soul, by Watchman Nee. Although I have not fully read it, in it I saw that he laid out various ways we can live out of our soul, not out of our spirit man. To understand this requires some clarification. Humans are made of three components: spirit, soul, and body. All three sort of work together but require the proper alignment. Really, that’s the heart of the matter.
I’ve found something that scares me. I just bought a new CD by a Christian artist and I love it. I love the flow. I love the sacrament of finding God in everyday simple things like doing dishes, sitting with friends over coffee, and so on that this artist portrays. No, its not the “deep” worship I’m used to, but its like the way Jesus doesn’t make things complex to those who are hungry. You see, when Jesus spoke in parables He made truth so easy anyone could understand it if they were spiritually hungry. At the same time, Jesus spoke in parables to make truth hard to understand for those seeking to find its meaning through their souls. Our spirits are the interpretive grid and are dysfunctional apart from the Holy Spirit inside of us bringing to us revelation. Jesus gives this to us.
My fear is that as a Christian musician myself, I’m prey to operating in, and ministering out of the soul instead of the spirit. I’m shocked by how easy this can come. It is so easy to create lyrics from my heart, without connecting to the Holy Spirit, put with it a catchy melody line and be swoon away by the soul. The more dangerous part is doing this to Jesus’ Bride! The career of a “Christian” musician never really needs to be terminated, even if you drop off the “Christian” part of it. I think we’ve seen this in our culture quite a bit with bands that start on a Christian label and then move into the secular arena. The problem is that their faith stays with the Christian label almost like it was borrowed from the beginning to win their success and fan base. It is always possible to operate out of our soul apart from Christ. People may follow us because we have the right lyrics, the right sounds, the right appearance, but the matter is our hearts. The Pharisees were chastised for having lips that draw near to God, but their hearts are far from Him. They were experts in appearing spiritual, but to be honest, to me that doesn’t seem so hard. To appear spiritual comes quite natural to us because I believe we are operating on such a low level of spirituality in the West as it is. It is changing and I want to change from glory to glory.
So how do I walk in light of that reality? I’m keeping the fear before me, because it is not an evil fear. If I have the fear of the LORD, then I can walk rightly. Really fearing Him, trembling because He’s not wrong and sees everything. Awestruck by beauty, goodness, life, passion, and hope in Him. My job is to say one thing, only one thing: what He says. I have great promises of songs that can unlock hearts and set people free and I want them. I want the shekinah glory of God to show up when I sing my worship song to Him. But I get that by opening up my spirit to His Holy Spirit, asking for revelation of the Word of God to move my soul (mind, will, emotions), and I’ll walk that out in the flesh (in my body). This is the only way to stay sane, to live with God as the center.
As the pressures of life, the weight of the world, the darkness of the present age seek to choke out the spirit of devotion and intimacy for the sake of productivity, performance and looking clean, I want my spirit awake. Really, John the Baptist was totally unattractive. His “melody” wasn’t popular. His lyrics didn’t fit the day. “Repent, for the kingdom of God is at hand?” Then walks in Jesus saying the same thing. Imagine their parents. “Ok, we’ve waited 30 years for those promises around John and Jesus’ births and this is what they come out with? I was hoping for something a little more…substantial? These guys aren’t really ‘winners,’ Jesus doesn’t even have an army to take the king out and start His reign.” In other words, nothing in their lives looked promising. Yes, renewal, yes, healings, yes, signs, yes cryptic sayings, yes to the beauty of God’s word striking our hearts, but the package was so unattractive, so despised. We can miss it because the greatness that really counts isn’t measured in this age.
So what do Christian artists do? The Wilderness. Go to the wilderness. Be ignored, be unheard and undiscovered. Play in secret knowing that you move the Father’s heart. Therein lies your success, security and hope. Security in this age is nothing before the God of fire who burns in passion for you. And check out Don Potter’s Facing the Wall CD, performance is dead.